Third Wheel

Today was the baby shower for 2 of my very good friends. I am super happy for them, and I think they will be the coolest parents ever. I can't really imagine them as parents, and the fact that she is 6 weeks from giving birth astounds me, but they are such cool people (she works at the zoo!!) that I know they will rock. In any case, I caught a ride to the party with another couple who are married and also really good friends. When we arrived, I realized I was one of the very few single people there. I think part of this is because my friends who are having the baby are are in their 30s already (I still have over 3 years til I hit that mark!), so most of the people there were older than me. Still though, as I thought about it more, I realized most of my friends here are in relationships. And I mean long-term, serious relationships. This means I am often the 3rd wheel. And while sometimes it doesn't bother me, there are certainly instances when I really wished I had someone by my side. I just don't know why I haven't met that person yet. Maybe I am meant to be alone. I am super independent, and coupling that with shyness and being picky, I feel like I won't ever meet the right person. I think I am reaching the point where I need to be more proactive though. Whether that means going out alone or trying to new things on my own or joining an online dating site, I'm not sure, but I'm certainly getting tired of what seems to be my permanent role as 3rd wheel.