news
so on thursday i got some great news, and some terrible news. i was sitting at the train station waiting for my train to come and i called mom to check in. my uncle was diagnosed with multiple myeloma last january. this is basically a cancer of the blood. it can never be cured, but it can go into remission. when i last saw unky in april, it seemed like he had lost some weight, but otherwise he was still himself. unfortunately, when i saw him this past week, the situation had completely changed. he was weak, had lost a ton of weight, and when i hugged him, he felt lik skin and bones. on top of that, mentally, he just wasnt the same. this brings me to thursday morning. i was sitting at the station, when mom told me that they had decided to stop fighting and that he only has a couple weeks, if that to live. so there i am, crying at the train station, feeling so many things its impossible to explain. when mom and i moved to sd from la in 1990, he was my father figure. we had dinner with both my uncle and aunt every sunday; he taught me how to throw a ball as well as how to kick a soccer ball; he helped me build everything from the solar system to a mission to a medieval castle to my history day projects; he was an integral part of my childhood. so now i am back in dc, and i literally just got the news that he passed away in the middle of writing this all out. i came back yesterday and he died today. why. all i can ask is why.
i had more to write, but now im not in any mood to.
notizie
Saturday, August 16, 2008
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
La Vita
Life
I have been thinking lately a lot about life and all the different turns we take.
First off, my uncle has Multiple Cell Myeloma. In other words, he has cancer of the blood. I have seen him a couple times on this trip home, and he does not resemble the guy who taught me to play catch or kick a soccer ball anymore, and it breaks my heart. He is like a skeleton of his former self, all skin and bones, and his pain medication means that his mind isn’t all there anymore either. I don’t know how much longer he has left, and it is just so sad that such a great guy if being forced to suffer through this disease. There is always the hope that he goes into remission, so I am keeping my fingers crossed.
Anther thing that got me thinking was that on the drive to visit my grandmother on Saturday, and today again on the train, I went through Camp Pendleton, the marine base, and I saw a little tent city that seems to be a training camp of sorts for Afghanistan/ Iraq. I also saw them training a bit, and heard some war games the other day. Its so odd that it takes coming home, to San Diego, to feel more about what is going on than living in the Capitol does. It just brings it home how real the War is and that people are dying every day.
I have also been thinking a lot about friendships in the past couple weeks. Last year I was a bit upset when my birthday came and went and people who I thought I was important to didn’t acknowledge it at all. This year, instead of getting my hopes up, I was pleasantly surprised when random people I haven’t talked to in years wished me a happy day. Granted, they only remembered because they saw it on facebook, but it still doesn’t take away from the fact that they took the time out of their days to say hello; especially when certain other people managed to miss my day again. All in all, it was a good day, and it ended with some good people (Dano, Justin, and Esteban). Then there is Alexandra. I really have no idea why we are still friends, lol. We have next to nothing in common, and in fact, are opposites in everything; we never see each other, except for 3 hour lunches once every couple months; we are terrible at keeping up with email and phone calls. Yet, there are never any awkward pauses in conversation, we talk about everything form politics to friends to family, and though I am exasperated by her and do not understand a lot of her choices, I think we will always be friends.
I am on my way to spend a couple days with Dad, which will be nice since I haven’t seen him since February I think it was. I miss him. We used to talk every night on the phone, and then I went to college, lol. I need to be better about that. Part of it is laziness, not going to lie, but the other part is the time difference and busy lives. In any case, I am looking forward to a couple days in his company before heading back to DC, though I am bummed I don’t get to spend more time with my friends. Such is life.
La Vita
I have been thinking lately a lot about life and all the different turns we take.
First off, my uncle has Multiple Cell Myeloma. In other words, he has cancer of the blood. I have seen him a couple times on this trip home, and he does not resemble the guy who taught me to play catch or kick a soccer ball anymore, and it breaks my heart. He is like a skeleton of his former self, all skin and bones, and his pain medication means that his mind isn’t all there anymore either. I don’t know how much longer he has left, and it is just so sad that such a great guy if being forced to suffer through this disease. There is always the hope that he goes into remission, so I am keeping my fingers crossed.
Anther thing that got me thinking was that on the drive to visit my grandmother on Saturday, and today again on the train, I went through Camp Pendleton, the marine base, and I saw a little tent city that seems to be a training camp of sorts for Afghanistan/ Iraq. I also saw them training a bit, and heard some war games the other day. Its so odd that it takes coming home, to San Diego, to feel more about what is going on than living in the Capitol does. It just brings it home how real the War is and that people are dying every day.
I have also been thinking a lot about friendships in the past couple weeks. Last year I was a bit upset when my birthday came and went and people who I thought I was important to didn’t acknowledge it at all. This year, instead of getting my hopes up, I was pleasantly surprised when random people I haven’t talked to in years wished me a happy day. Granted, they only remembered because they saw it on facebook, but it still doesn’t take away from the fact that they took the time out of their days to say hello; especially when certain other people managed to miss my day again. All in all, it was a good day, and it ended with some good people (Dano, Justin, and Esteban). Then there is Alexandra. I really have no idea why we are still friends, lol. We have next to nothing in common, and in fact, are opposites in everything; we never see each other, except for 3 hour lunches once every couple months; we are terrible at keeping up with email and phone calls. Yet, there are never any awkward pauses in conversation, we talk about everything form politics to friends to family, and though I am exasperated by her and do not understand a lot of her choices, I think we will always be friends.
I am on my way to spend a couple days with Dad, which will be nice since I haven’t seen him since February I think it was. I miss him. We used to talk every night on the phone, and then I went to college, lol. I need to be better about that. Part of it is laziness, not going to lie, but the other part is the time difference and busy lives. In any case, I am looking forward to a couple days in his company before heading back to DC, though I am bummed I don’t get to spend more time with my friends. Such is life.
La Vita
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
stella di film
movie star
i have a new movie star crush...
Matthew Goode
so freaking cute
stella di film
i have a new movie star crush...
Matthew Goode
so freaking cute
stella di film
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
Cal-if-orn-i-a
California
Home sweet home am I, though the sweet part is debatable. Yesterday was my flight and it was interesting, as flying always is. my first flight was from DC to Dallas, and apparently someone was having an anxiety attack or something, bc when we got to Dallas, the captain came on and told us emt's were coming on the plane before we could get off. So that was a bit of an adventure. Then, my connecting flight to SD was at least 30 min late bc of an overhead bin hanging in the aisle. So that was fun.
Today was fun too. I got to hang out with Dano. :) She is one of my favorite people, and I realized today that we are almost at our 9 year anniversary of being friends. :) Hard to believe that it has been that long, but at the same time its hard to believe that it hasnt been longer. She is definitely the best thing that came out of high school for me; a life-long friend.
I do have some tentative plans for my time at home, and we shall see how much of it actually happens. There are some people I really want to see, and others who I dont really care about, lol.
One thing I have already been happy to experience is the weather. I sat outside waiting for Dano today (since my car wouldnt start) and I was amazed at the lack of humidity. The fact that I could sit outside and not immediately start sweating or feel like I was in a sauna. Man I love it here. :)
Cal-if-orn-i-a
Home sweet home am I, though the sweet part is debatable. Yesterday was my flight and it was interesting, as flying always is. my first flight was from DC to Dallas, and apparently someone was having an anxiety attack or something, bc when we got to Dallas, the captain came on and told us emt's were coming on the plane before we could get off. So that was a bit of an adventure. Then, my connecting flight to SD was at least 30 min late bc of an overhead bin hanging in the aisle. So that was fun.
Today was fun too. I got to hang out with Dano. :) She is one of my favorite people, and I realized today that we are almost at our 9 year anniversary of being friends. :) Hard to believe that it has been that long, but at the same time its hard to believe that it hasnt been longer. She is definitely the best thing that came out of high school for me; a life-long friend.
I do have some tentative plans for my time at home, and we shall see how much of it actually happens. There are some people I really want to see, and others who I dont really care about, lol.
One thing I have already been happy to experience is the weather. I sat outside waiting for Dano today (since my car wouldnt start) and I was amazed at the lack of humidity. The fact that I could sit outside and not immediately start sweating or feel like I was in a sauna. Man I love it here. :)
Cal-if-orn-i-a
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