Relationships

I have been thinking about relationships lately. I bitch and moan inside my head (and sometimes to others) about how I wish I had that special somebody to just be with. I'm envious of people who have met the person they know they want to spend their lives with already, and I feel like a lot of people I know from high school/college have gotten married or are getting married this year. In other words, it feels like I am being repeatedly slapped in the face with "I'm in a relationship and you aren't." Then one day I sat down and started thinking, and I realized something. Even if I had met that someone, I would have no time to dedicate to them. I mean, I work 815-5 every day, I have class 810-1040 two nights a week, I work in retail on the weekends to help pay the bills from 1230-930 on Saturdays and 9-6 on Sundays, and in my free time I am usually reading or writing for school, or absolutely exhausted and unable to motivate myself to leave the house. Basically, I have no time for a relationship. Its difficult enough to carve out time to see friends, which I manage to do on random Wednesday's or Friday's for dinner/drinks. A relationship takes time and effort, which I honestly don't have to give right now. So no matter how much I want one, at the same time, I don't. Sigh, what a sad realization. I doubt it will stop my bitching and moaning when I just want to get away from it all or another wedding/engagement pops up though. Oh life, why must you torture me so.

Television

I don't get much time to watch tv these days, which is not necessarily a bad thing. Still, when I do get time, I want to be able to watch my show without interruptions. Sadly, I have come to the realization that watching tv with one of my roommates is not going to be something I enjoy. He talks through everything and has a very decisive opinion on absolutely everything that he feels he has to share. When I have time to watch, thats all I want to do. I do not want to be distracted by the peanut gallery. So instead of enjoying my show (Top Chef at the moment), I am ignoring my roommate, feeling rude, and still missing part of the show. Sigh. Anyway, thats my rant for now.

Just a reminder...

I actually want to write this whole story out, but it is late and I have work tomorrow, so this little entry is just a reminder to write about the car chase-almost shoot out (ok, not really, but it felt like it)-foot chase-car chase-siren screaming-adrenaline pumping incident this morning that occurred as I was awaiting the arrival of my bus.

Procrastination

Well, school has begun again, and with it comes the mastering of the art of procrastination. I have a 1000 word paper due tomorrow night, and I just do not want to write it. We have to compare two of the readings assigned (there have been 11 so far), including summary and analysis. While I have enjoyed most of the reading, I have no idea what I want to write on. Hence, the procrastination. Instead of brainstorming and coming up with an outline, I have managed to play online, shower, eat lunch, follow baseball games on Gameday, and keep on top of the US Open (tennis). While this is all well and good, it does nothing to help with my paper. I also have a ton of reading to do for my class on Thursday, which I haven't even started. On top of that, Orientation for my internship is tomorrow, meaning my days are going to be busy, with no time for reading. This means I need to read and write today/tonight. Arg. One would think that all of that would be motivation enough. Sadly, its not. Sigh. Deep breaths, and time to review my readings to come up with an idea for a paper topic.

On the other hand, I also need to check the Angels score...