molti fuochi

many fires.
living in san diego is supposed to be a dream. people forget however, that mother nature has the final say. while many people just think of the beach, the sun, and the weather when the think of san diego, they should also remember earthquakes, and our most recent tragedy, fire. one might think that after the fires in 2003, that lessons would have been learned and that the county as a whole would be better prepared. in some cases this was true, however in other areas it could have been much better than the actual situation turned out. the good is the fact that communication was much better this time around and that people were evacuated before the fire got there so if the house couldnt be saved, at least human lives could be. however, communication can also be improved between the government and the military. the military was ready to assist, and no one asked them to. we could have had their fire fighting copters and planes in the air on tuesday, but only the navy was asked. i want to know why. i also want to know why it took so long to get help. another thing that bothered me happened today. the good old president came to tour the area and make speeches about giving us aid. while he was making this speech, he has about 50-75 firemen standing behind him. i feel that they should either have been out there fighting the fire or resting after fighting the fires for however many hours they were out there. they did not need to be involved in the presidents photo op. that kind of thing is disrespectful to me, and i wish it hadnt been done. on another note, the fire did get scarily close to me. it was about 5 miles away at the closest point. the worst day was monday, and at one point, the sky got really orange and you just knew it wasnt going well. the fire was contained though, and our focus for fear switched to the big fire that as of yet, is just shy of burning 200,000 acres. over 500,000 people were evacuated, more than were evacuated cue to hurricane katrina. this has just been a huge disaster, and i hope that we can recover from it, because san diego is one of the best places in the world to live, regardless of the earthquakes and fires. :)

valori cambianti

changing values

As I "grow up" and face the world as it really is, my values have begun a slight twist...or have they?
An example of this is a friend who has recently cheated on her boyfriend. Some time ago, I would have immediately said that anyone who cheated on their significant other was a terrible person and doesnt deserve to be in a relationship. Yet, this is not at all how I feel about this situation. For one, this person is extremely important to me, so I could never think truly ill of her. For another, she is 22 and living on the other side of the country from her boyfriend who she has not seen since August. Are these excuses? No, not necessarily; but they are reasons. I was talking to her today about the situation, and she feels bad, but she doesnt know who to break it off with. She does not want to hurt the person she has been dating for over a year who she even lived with for a time, but she doesnt want lose what could possibly be a better thing as well- freedom while young. What to do? What is right and what is wrong in this situation? I think it depends on who is answering.
Ugh, changing thoughts, feelings, and values. And my mom wonders why I get more cynical every time I come home from school. Knowledge, knowledge has changed me.

Valori cambianti

non voglio per sempre essere un virgin

I dont want to be a virgin forever.

On Wednesday on Private Practice there was a woman who was 35 and still a virgin. I so dont want that to be me. However, what she was saying rang true to me. She didnt want to lose it to some band geek or loser in high school or college, and then she had waited so long, why not just save it. I understand those feelings and I tend to kind of agree with them. Which worries me. I do not want to be a virgin when I am 35. I am not planning on waiting until I am married, I just dont want to just give it up. Plus, I admit it, Im scared. I suppose its a natural feeling. But at the same time, I just dont want the virgin status anymore. Sigh. Its yet another thing I cant make up my mind about.

non voglio per sempre essere un virgin

banchetto di amore

feast of love

so i saw the move "feast of love" today, and it was...interesting. It definitely was not what I was expecting at all.
There were some things especially that made me think.
It was rated R for sex and nudity, and I saw reviews beforehand about how there was full frontal nudity, but I still wasn't prepared for how much nudity and sex there was.
Its funny, but I also learned a lot about sex from this movie. I mean, I have read about "positions" in the novels I read, but I could never imagine them because I don't know. This movie, showed everything. I almost want to buy the movie just so I can watch those parts again and learn more, lol.
Then there is the fact that Diana and David were secret lovers; he was an adulterer, and she was cheating on her boyfriend, Bradley. Yet, I was rooting for them because they were perfect for each other. Why would I root for cheaters? I don't believe in cheating, yet I did for this movie. Then again, they ended up legitimately together by the end of the movie, with everyone happy. Still. Maybe it was because it was a movie that I was able to be somewhat okay with it, since I knew something could come about to fix it. Only in Hollywood.
And as corny as this sounds, I want my own feast of love. :-)

banchetto di amore