passing time
so it is the year 2008, and so much has happened, yet so little has changed. i hardly know where to begin.
i suppose i can start with new years eve, since i have wanted to vent on it for a long time. we had all planned on going to the gaslamp for nye, but justin and bean bailed bc it was expensive. i can understand that, but it bummed me out. so instead of going out with them, i decided to go with dano bc she was planning on going to the gaslamp. i knew there was a possibility that i would be the 5th wheel, but i also knew that could happen if i was the only girl with all guys, or the odd one out with the 2 couples in the gaslamp. so we went to the gaslamp, and i must say, ryan is pathetic to me now. he was drunk every time i saw him this past winter break and he just keeps asking to be kicked. dt itself was entertaining; lots of dancing, some weird guys, a bit of fighting between dano and ryan, and a terrible midnight kiss. the guys tongue was like a slug, and if that is what kissing is all about, i want none of it. after that, walking home, ryan was a complete ass. he wouldnt walk with us, our feet hurt, and he didnt want to listen when i knew we were going the wrong way. and then it got worse. we got back to the hotel, and he was all over dano. he was rubbing and kissing her feet, and she kept pushing him away, and he cried, and i just wanted to shake him. and then, when i was going to sleep elsewhere, i was convinced to sleep on the bed with the 2 of them, and i had a measly foot of space. when i woke up, ryan had spooned dano in the middle of the bed with a good 2 feet left over on his side. so rude and inconsiderate. i was ready to say good bye when he left...and then he was at danos house when we got there. so i left immediately. i am just over it. he is like a dog who gets kicked by its owner, but keeps coming back in hopes of getting love.
on another note, i am back in dc. just when i thought life was all set, it is going topsy turvy again. i love my apartment and my roommate and her friends all seem great. my room is slowly but surely being put together and I truly enjoy it. when it comes to school however, my life is a mess. i was so excited about going to iwp, because it has such an interesting program and i am so interested in intelligence. however, before you can take any of those classes, you have to take certain pre-reqs. when i first read about them i thought they would be okay, but the classes are not what they seem. instead of being a class on ir, all we talked about was religion and rights, and everything has a conservative bent. if i had known that prior to attending class, i never would have agreed to go there. so now my hopes for this school are dashed and i am a bit at a loss. so i went back to au to check it out, and i think i will be happy there. i enjoy lawso, and studying it more can only help. i am not interested in law school, but i am fascinated by law in general. so maybe instead of going into the field of intelligence i can go into another field and still do good for the nation. i dont know. but i do know that the campus of au is more along the lines of what i am looking for. i mean, they actually have separate buildings and a bookstore and more than 200 students...per college. all in all, i think it will be a good decision to go there. the only downside is that i am now in dc, with an apartment, and nothing to do. i plan on getting a job, but it is so difficult, more so than i had imagined at first. when i think about what i wrote earlier about not being a huge fan of iwp and but how i felt that way about ucsb at first, i think that can actually be applied to au. i knew from the start that iwp was a bit odd and different, but i think that the way i feel about au will change as i attend. i do think though that i need to move closer to au, or at least to a metro. in the mean time, i need to find something to do with myself.
i suppose thats enough for now, its just amazing how quickly time passes on.
passando tempo
