Growing Up

I had dinner with some really good friends tonight, where I found out that one of them is going to have a baby. Holy. Crap. I am super happy for Pat and Jillian, and they are in their early thirties, so its not like this is something that was completely unexpected, its just a bit of a wake-up call. I mean, Andrew and Jamie got married last April, and Pat and Jillian will be having a baby in August. And what about me? I am single and it looks like I will continue to be that way for some time. I don't even know if I want kids, but the fact that my good friends are hitting these huge milestones and I am still stuck in the dugout, not even on the playing field, is a bit disappointing. And the worst thing of all? I know I only have myself to blame; if I don't put myself out there, nothing will ever happen. So I need to do more, and if that means doing more on my own, then so be it. It's time to get out of my shell and try some new things and meet new people. I love the people I hang out with now, and I have great friends here, but most of them are in serious relationships, and I am tired of being the odd (wo)man out. So, March resolution...find something I want to do and do it, regardless of how scared I may be.