my best friend
so my best friend is engaged, and i am super happy for her. at the same time though, i feel like im losing her a bit. this all kind of hit me tonight. she called me a month or so ago and asked if she could stay at my place while she was out here visiting her fiance, since he lives with all boys and i am by myself as my roommate is gone for the week. i was all for it since i havent seen her in forever. however, i also figured that she would be spending most of her time with him, so i wasnt counting on seeing her a lot. sadly, i did think i would see her more than i have. she was supposed to come over sun afternoon, but didnt come over til mon at 11pm. then, she left when i left on tues at 12, and i didnt see or hear from her til tonight at 830 when she walked in the door here. first of all, i have been trying to figure out if it is rude and inconsiderate of her to be out of contact for over 48 hours and not let me know whether or not she would be sleeping here the past couple nights, or if it is fantastic that she is not tied to her phone and email like i am. second, i realized that even when i am home for winter break, from here on out it wont be like it used to be when it comes to hanging out. this is because now he will always be there since he is essentially moving in with her after this semester. its not that i dont like the guy. honestly, i dont know him well enough to like or dislike him. granted, that might be part of my problem. i want dano happy, but she hasnt even known they guy for a year yet and they have been on opposite sides of the country since may. i have my doubts, but i am trying to be positive for her and i really just want her to be happy. back to the "it wont be the same anymore" thing. this came to me tonight when they came in, sat for a bit, then went back to the room and i havent seen them since. i have a feeling im going to be missing my best friend more than if we were just on opposite sides of the country from here on out. he doesnt know anyone in sd, so he will be going everywhere with her, which means if i wanna hang out with her, he will probably be there too. so im kind of bummed, as that realization hit me tonight. anyway, i doubt i will see much more of her this weekend, and i have a final on monday and fly home tuesday, so it will be what it will be. growing up and changing really sucks sometimes. sigh.
la mi migliore amica
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Monday, December 1, 2008
dicembre
december
where did the year go? i look back and cant believe that 11 months have passed so quickly. so much has changed in my life, from my hopes and dreams to my reality.
a year ago i was planning on going to iwp, with some reservations, but hopeful because of the program i was going to be a part of. two months later i withdrew and was at a loss, not knowing what to do with myself. then i attended a graduate student day at au and was once again hopeful. i met some interesting people and the program seemed like it could work. so i had my school, but nothing to do because school didnt start for five more months. so, i started at gap, and that was that. easy money, though at times i still want to rip my hair out. i applied for internship after internship, and finally got one that starts in january. well, if i pass my background check that is. then school began and i heaved a huge sigh of relief as everything seemed to be clicking- classes, friends, and internships. i was accepted for another internship starting in the summer and going through the following fall, so it seemed like my life was set. then, this second internship kind of fell apart and i am once again feeling at a loss and unsure of what i am going to do. i had hoped that this second internship could lead to a job eventually, but now i think that is not an option, so i am wondering once again about the direction i want to take with my life and where i eventually want to work. essentially, a year has passed and while a lot has changed, it still feels like there has not been a lot of change as well, sigh.
i hope that a year from now i am a bit more settled in my hopes, dreams, and realities, and looking forward to the following year.
dicembre
where did the year go? i look back and cant believe that 11 months have passed so quickly. so much has changed in my life, from my hopes and dreams to my reality.
a year ago i was planning on going to iwp, with some reservations, but hopeful because of the program i was going to be a part of. two months later i withdrew and was at a loss, not knowing what to do with myself. then i attended a graduate student day at au and was once again hopeful. i met some interesting people and the program seemed like it could work. so i had my school, but nothing to do because school didnt start for five more months. so, i started at gap, and that was that. easy money, though at times i still want to rip my hair out. i applied for internship after internship, and finally got one that starts in january. well, if i pass my background check that is. then school began and i heaved a huge sigh of relief as everything seemed to be clicking- classes, friends, and internships. i was accepted for another internship starting in the summer and going through the following fall, so it seemed like my life was set. then, this second internship kind of fell apart and i am once again feeling at a loss and unsure of what i am going to do. i had hoped that this second internship could lead to a job eventually, but now i think that is not an option, so i am wondering once again about the direction i want to take with my life and where i eventually want to work. essentially, a year has passed and while a lot has changed, it still feels like there has not been a lot of change as well, sigh.
i hope that a year from now i am a bit more settled in my hopes, dreams, and realities, and looking forward to the following year.
dicembre
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