Incision Update

I saw my surgeon 2 weeks ago for my 1 year post-op check up. My main concern was the fact that my skin still hasn't flattened out. To fix that, my doctor said they could cut out the scar and make a new and longer incision. I said no thanks. I'd rather live with skin that isn't exactly smooth and flat than go through healing another incision that may not end up flat either. So that's that.

The problem now is that my incision still hasn't finished healing. My doctor looked at it and said that the main incision should look like my stitch marks, which are pale and white. Instead, its still pretty pink. And it shouldn't be pink. So now I'm trying some scar therapy stuff to help it finish healing. Right now I'm using Scar Away, which is a silicone sheet that I put on my leg every day. It's a little obnoxious to clean every night, but it's better than using silicone gel that I have to put on and then wait 5 minutes for it to dry before getting dressed. So the saga continues.

In other saga news, I still haven't heard from my dermatologist's office about my next appointment. After I saw my surgeon, I stopped by the dermatologist's office since it was right down the hall, to see about the double booking or procedure appointment that the nurse talked about since the schedule is otherwise full through December. The receptionist wasn't exactly helpful, but she said she would send a note to my dermatologist to get his permission for one of those appointments. If I don't hear from them office by the end of the month, I guess I'll call them again. Sigh.

Celebrations

Since the summer, the number of weddings and engagements happening among my friends and acquaintances is insane:

Kwon got married in June

Mo got married in July
Neil got engaged in July

Gianna got in engaged in July

Shawna got engaged in September

Bonnie got engaged yesterday

Melissa got engaged yesterday

Ami gets married tomorrow

AnneMarie gets married in 2 weeks

Christen gets married in a month

I'm not going to the last three weddings, but I'm pretty sure I'll be going to Shawna, Bonnie, and Melissa's weddings. 

I also recently found out that Andrew and Jamie are moving to Virginia, and not to a metro accessible part of Virginia. 

I feel like everyone is moving forward, and I'm not. I'm genuinely happy for all of my friends and these milestones they're hitting, but sometimes I wonder if I will ever hit them. I know I've said it's time to put myself out there before, but I've obviously never done so. I guess I'm just scared. I don't want to face rejection and I'm afraid of disappointing people, which makes it super easy to just hang out with friends or on my own. I don't think I'm very good at taking risks. I mean, I did take a big risk when I moved across the country without out a set plan for the future, but I haven't done anything major since. Maybe it's time. 

Then again, I've said that before and didn't do anything. Maybe this weekend will be enough to push me to make a change, but we'll have to see how I feel tomorrow.