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the holidays

so, its coming upon that time of year that i cant decide if i love or loath.
first up is halloween. or i guess i should say was. maybe im growing up or maybe im just a lame hermit, but i was not interested in really doing anything this year. my roommate had some friends over, and by some i mean about 20. i knew maybe 5 people, so i talked with them, but im kind of shy with people i dont know, sigh. anyway, after they left i was planning on staying in, but i got convinced to go to the tombs, the college bar here in georgetown. it was a nice hour hanging out, and i didnt feel out of place or anything, but im kind of just over it all. i feel like im at the awkward stage where the keg parties are lame, but im not grown up enough to have a solid dinner/wine party, whatever that may be, lol. in any case, halloween is now over and its on the the next holiday, thanksgiving.
this will be my 3rd thanksgiving in a row away from home, and im not quite sure how i feel about that. in a way i am bummed because its a family holiday and i want to be with people i love and care about. in another way its a relief because i dont have to worry about which parent i am having it with. i almsot feel that if i had a significant other it would be easier, but i dont know. maybe i just think that bc i dont really know. sigh.
chanukkah is coming up soon too. and christmas of course. im not sure what to do for friends bc i havent been hanging out with anyone in cali, so do they expect presents? and the people here i havent known that long, so it might be a bit awkward to give them presents, and there really are not that many to give presents to here anyway, lol. plus, ive been thinking about money lately, and the fact that while i may have 2 awesome internships lined up, i wont be making any money for the next year and a half. scary thought. so while i want to give stuff, i also want to save my money too.
and that brings me to my next issue, which is housing. i have no idea what i am going to do. a lot of it hinges on lee catherine, but she hasnt told me anything yet. i am in the process of looking around, but everything is so much smaller and/or more expensive than what i have now, so i think it would be insane to move. plus, i have a list that i think it impossible to fulfill, lol. i want to be close to a market, close to a metro, in a city-like area, and be able to have a cat. im not sure that exists. so in between school and work and going through security stuff for my internships, i have to worry about this too. sigh.
ugh, so much going on. and i guess i better gear up for more, bc life is only going to get crazier.

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