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papers

so right now i am in the middle of my first research paper for graduate school. i suppose its going well, but to be honest, who knows? it is due on thursday and i cant even say how far i am or how much is left to do because there is no requirement. its just research and write about it. its kind of neat, but when its 50 percent of your grade, its also kind of worrisome.
in any event, i guess what i really wanted to muse about is how sometimes as i am proofreading my writing, or looking over an assignment that is handed back to me, im shocked that the words on the page came from me. its a good feeling, but weird at the same time. i just read it and go, "wow, that came from my brain, through my fingers, and on to the page? shocking!" i dont know why its so surpsing, but it is. i guess the good news is that im never like, "shit. that was terrible. what were you thinking?" so all in all, its a good thing i think. anyway, i have already had a moment of pleasant surprise on this paper, and i hope i only have a few more of those, and not any panic abou finishing or having a crappy paper.
back to work!

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