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thoughts

so as i flew into california on friday morning, i thought to myself, why did i ever leave? the weather was beautiful, the ocean was shining blue, my family and friends are here...its just so perfect. there have even been times in the past couple of months where i have been thinking about moving back to cali sooner rather than later. i love dc and i love the east coast and seasons and whatnot, but there is so much about california that i love too. i think part of the reason i have been thinking about all this is because i am so tired of my life right now. i wish everything had worked out and that i was in school instead of working at gap and killing time. then again, it wouldnt be life if everything went according to plan. and there is also the fact that i would always wonder what would have happened if i had never gone to "the cult" for that one week, i wouldnt have my great roommate and apt if i hadnt moved out in september, and i still probably wouldnt have a job, lol. so while it is normal to bitch and moan, i guess i wouldnt have it any other way, unless i could keep the roomie and apt and have no doubts about my school, lol.
in any case, i was also reminded of some not so good things about being home. like on friday night, when justin and i were trying to figure out what to do. there really is not much to do here, especially as young adults. granted, i am mostly a hermit in dc, but if/when i want to go out or do something, i can. here, not so much.
i guess none of this really matters very much anyway bc i go back to dc on tuesday, start school in august, and will be there for 2 years. who knows where i will go from there, but for now, thats my life.

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