I think that I am suffering from cabin fever. I keep getting antsy and angry and bored and nothing is making me happy. I am tired of being here, where I can't do anything. Part of it is my broken foot and the fact that I can't drive anywhere. The other is the fact that there is really next to nothing to do in San Marcos. Especially seeing as all my friends are either gone or working or in school. I just feel like there is absolutely nothing for me to do. Im not in the mood to do some homework, read, lay out, walk, anything. the things I want to do I can't: run, dance, swim, yell, scream. Sigh.
I loath feeling this self-pity, but I can't help how I feel. I think going to SF and DC was good because it gave me a break from the monotony, but bad because it made me even more itchy to get out. I love my mom, and it hasn't even been that bad living here for now in that respect, I just need to get out of the house.
So, do I give in and go to American just to go to school and get out of here? I can't. Its just not in me to do that. I need to do something though, because soon I think I will seriously freak out.
Sigh, I need to get out of here.
1 comment:
i know exactly how you feel, except it's different in a way. i can yell, dance, swim, and do all those things, but i still feel like there's nothing to do. if that makes sense?
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