So I have been to DC and back, and the trip was supposed to make all my decisions easier. Instead, I have more questions than answers. I went to the Institute of World Politics, and I met an admissions adviser, as well as the president of the university. The courses all look really interesting, but I am worried that the courses are more geared towards strategy and policy, and I am more interested in analysis. I am someone who likes to be in the background, and this school prepares you to be in the foreground. It isn't necessarily a bad thing to be able to be in the front while residing in the back, but I am worried that it will be too much stress for something I really don't want to do. Also, the school is so tiny, and not really well known. Part of the reason I want to go to grad school is to get a leg up in the industry and make connections. Going to a place that no one knows abut may not necessarily help me. Then there is that final. I know I shouldn't base whether or not I go to a school on the final exam, but it is still scary.
Then there is American. It is a great school, but is it really where I want to go? It is ranked in the top 3 of its kind of school, but do I want to go there only for the name? I am afraid that A) it will be a continuation of what I have already done, and B) that it has nothing to do with what I really want to do.
So, what do I want to do? I want to work in the intelligence industry. I do not want to be the one gathering the intelligence, I want to be the one who gets it, looks at it, and analyzes it. I have no desire to be a star, but I want to have an impact. I want to make a difference, as cliche as it sounds.
Sigh. So as seen, I have all of these questions and no answers... and I am not done yet.
I found a program at Georgetown University that seems geared exactly towards what I want to do. But, can I get into Georgetown? I really have my reservations. My GRE scores are no where near their average. Then again, it is only an average, and I have other good points. The school has the name, and the program, everything really... but is it an impossible dream?
Sigh, decisions, decisions...
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