Celebrations

Since the summer, the number of weddings and engagements happening among my friends and acquaintances is insane:

Kwon got married in June

Mo got married in July
Neil got engaged in July

Gianna got in engaged in July

Shawna got engaged in September

Bonnie got engaged yesterday

Melissa got engaged yesterday

Ami gets married tomorrow

AnneMarie gets married in 2 weeks

Christen gets married in a month

I'm not going to the last three weddings, but I'm pretty sure I'll be going to Shawna, Bonnie, and Melissa's weddings. 

I also recently found out that Andrew and Jamie are moving to Virginia, and not to a metro accessible part of Virginia. 

I feel like everyone is moving forward, and I'm not. I'm genuinely happy for all of my friends and these milestones they're hitting, but sometimes I wonder if I will ever hit them. I know I've said it's time to put myself out there before, but I've obviously never done so. I guess I'm just scared. I don't want to face rejection and I'm afraid of disappointing people, which makes it super easy to just hang out with friends or on my own. I don't think I'm very good at taking risks. I mean, I did take a big risk when I moved across the country without out a set plan for the future, but I haven't done anything major since. Maybe it's time. 

Then again, I've said that before and didn't do anything. Maybe this weekend will be enough to push me to make a change, but we'll have to see how I feel tomorrow.