New Beginnings

Well, 2013 can't be any worse than 2012, right? I mean, I've already been diagnosed with cancer, and beaten it so far. I just have to hope that I don't get another melanoma. Luckily the results from my last couple biopsies were clear, so yay for that. My next appointment is in February, once I can book it that is. Fingers crossed all looks good. My incision is healing pretty well, and my body hasn't rejected any more of the stitches, so that's a good thing. I just have to keep an eye on my skin evening out, which it still hasn't. So at 6 months I might be making a follow up appointment with my surgeon. We shall see.

In other medical news, I have an appointment with my ophthalmologist for Feb 19. I have had an eye problem for over a year now, and while it's better, my eyes still aren't completely normal, so we shall have to see what he says.

I spent Dec 21-30 in CA, and it was nice to get away from DC for a bit. I'm planning on traveling more in the coming year, and already have some trips to CA planned: my 10 year high school reunion (eek!), Mo's wedding, and of course the holidays next year. I would also love to go somewhere else, but that might have to wait until the following year.

This NYE was kind of a bust, but I am used to that. I always build up NYE in my mind in the hopes that it will be awesome, as it is the holiday I most look forward to, but I have learned to temper my hopes for the most part. This year I was supposed to go to a friend's apartment for a gathering, like last year. But last year I was the only single person left by the time the ball dropped, and I really didn't want to be in that situation again. Plus, it would take an hour to get there by metro, plus an hour to get back, and I'm just not in the mood. I'm also still kind of annoyed with the person hosting. One of my faults is that I can hold a grudge, and I'm just not ready to let this one go. The person hosting the party is one of the people I told about my melanoma pretty soon after my diagnosis, and while she checked in once the day of my surgery, she kind of disappeared after that, and expected me to come to VA if I wanted to hang out. I know she had a new and demanding job, and that she had a boyfriend, now fiance, but if the roles were reversed, I know I would have followed up and been more involved. So I'm still bitter. And I need to get over it. But I'm still mad enough to not go out to VA for the holiday, leaving me in DC. I was planning on hanging out with another friend, but she ended up having plans, so instead its just me, Sammy, and a glass of wine. And you know what? I'm okay with that. What is tonight other than just another night anyway? It would be nice to be with a significant other or with a group of people I want to be with, but I'm okay with my own company as well. And to be honest, after flying back to DC yesterday, I'm kind of worn out as it is.

Here is to 2013 being a better year than 2012, and to pushing myself further than before to get out there and do more.

P.S. One of these days I want to be in Sydney for NYE. It looks freaking amazing.