Relationships

I have been thinking about relationships lately. I bitch and moan inside my head (and sometimes to others) about how I wish I had that special somebody to just be with. I'm envious of people who have met the person they know they want to spend their lives with already, and I feel like a lot of people I know from high school/college have gotten married or are getting married this year. In other words, it feels like I am being repeatedly slapped in the face with "I'm in a relationship and you aren't." Then one day I sat down and started thinking, and I realized something. Even if I had met that someone, I would have no time to dedicate to them. I mean, I work 815-5 every day, I have class 810-1040 two nights a week, I work in retail on the weekends to help pay the bills from 1230-930 on Saturdays and 9-6 on Sundays, and in my free time I am usually reading or writing for school, or absolutely exhausted and unable to motivate myself to leave the house. Basically, I have no time for a relationship. Its difficult enough to carve out time to see friends, which I manage to do on random Wednesday's or Friday's for dinner/drinks. A relationship takes time and effort, which I honestly don't have to give right now. So no matter how much I want one, at the same time, I don't. Sigh, what a sad realization. I doubt it will stop my bitching and moaning when I just want to get away from it all or another wedding/engagement pops up though. Oh life, why must you torture me so.