dolore

pain

there are times i really hate myself, such as that night over a year ago now when i slipped off my bike, fell to the ground, and broke my foot. you would think that a year later everything would be hunky dory and it wouldnt hurt anymore, but you would be wrong. i have days where i dont even think about it, and then days like today when every step i take (anyone else hearing "every breath i take" in their heads?) is painful and makes me want to sit with my foot up, tylenol in my blood, and nothing to do for at least an hour.

i want to get back in to running, and with my foot feeling like this, i am freaking scared to run bc i dont want to break it again. freaking a. i wish i could just cut off my foot, then there wouldnt be any pain at all...though knowing my luck id have phantom pain in a foot that wasnt really even there.

ok, enough complaining, im going to have a margarita.

dolore